Being alone is a good way to know yourself better

This is the 6th day of my 10 days’ isolation, locked in a room, nobody to talk and can’t see anybody, even the balcony door is locked.

6 days ago, I finished my 2 months’ NA travel and back to Shanghai. According to the government Covid prevention rule, people back to China from abroad should be isolated alone for 7+3 days.

Being alone in a room for 6 days, let me to think about 2 hard questions: “Who am I?” and “What I really want?”.

When I was a teenager, teachers said I am a good student, elders said I am a good boy, you can not do this, you can not do that. So, in ordered to be a “good student” and a “good boy”, I never had courage to try those things that them told me are not good. Obviously, I was limited by “others’ opinions” in that time. I followed others’ opinions. But, is that I really want to be? I don’t think so. Lived in “others’ opinions” let me stayed in a fixed lane. We should have chance to make mistakes, so we can learn from failures, so we can build the strong heart to face failures. You are who you are, not who people say you are.

What I really want? Much money? No, enough money to pay for my family cost and let my child has a good environment is enough. I also don’t need a very big house, suitable is ok, or it would be a waste for me. So, what else I really want? Chasing the truth, know more about this world? Experiencing different challenges to let me know who I can be, and where my boundary is? … I don’t have the answer now. Maybe trying new things that I never did before is a good start. So I started to learn shuffle dance a few days ago.

Being alone can make you think deeply about things that happened to you. Through these reflections, you will know more about yourself.